“We crave that deep place within that cannot be touched by the ups and downs of life, but rather just IS – connected and whole.”
~ KATIE RUBINSTEIN
Getting Into The Muck
Building That Jar Of Trust
How’s your start of summer?
Last week I wrote about working on an intention over the long term. I told you that I was going to commit to releasing myself from judgment. Judgment of others. Judgment of self.
Since putting my awareness there, I realized something. Yes, judgment gets in the way, trips me up, and interferes with my highest, best self. I will continue my intention to be aware of, and release, judgment.
And, I realize there’s something even further down in the roots worth digging into.
Here’s the thing. I haven’t unearthed the right word for what I really want to let go of.
It resembles insecurity. It feels a little like anxiety. And, it goes on like a comfortable cloak. This covering provides a thin (or thick . . . depending!) layer of separation that is challenging to shed. Honestly? It’s with me way too much of the time.
While I do think this cloak has served me well at certain times in my life, I’m ready to hang it up. (At least most of the time.) Why? Because I no longer need its protection.
My years of daily yoga practice have changed me. While I will always be a work in progress, I now have a strong connection to my emotional self. I honor the entire spectrum of who I am. This may sound super simple for some of you (I hope so!) but I assure you . . . these things did not come readily for me.
It’s one thing to do this for myself and within myself. And quite another to find the comfort (the confidence? the clarity?) to be fully myself around others.
I have lots of thoughts about the “why” behind all of this, but I’m more interested in the “what’s next?”
As always, I use my practice to guide me. Time in stillness, connecting to my breath, is where I begin. I’m at the initial stages of this gentle internal investigation; here’s what I’ve gleaned so far:
Here’s to each of us lighting it up and leading with love,